What if?

For the most part, I don’t like to look at what ifs?  Leaves me playing a game of creating a life that was never there.  How ever, what if I didn’t have a counselor?  Sadly, this is a growing issue. Two things are hitting hard.  Many insurances don’t cover mental health appointments or the number…

Self-compassion

Learning Self-compassion is a long term goal. I can actually say I made improvements.  I am grieving a huge loss, instead of beating myself up for not moving mountains and working as if nothing happened, I am giving myself time each day to feel sad.  I cry when I need to.  I am not expecting…

4 perspectives

Every so often when I am planning a post, more perspectives come to my attention.  I am continuing addressing the different ways that are obvious and not so obvious self-care issues from CPTSD/PTSD.  This is the link to the original article: https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2017/07/16/25-obvious-non-obvious-self-care-issues-complex-trauma-survivors-struggle-with-lilly-hope-lucario/ Today’s discussion is from #6 To stop always saying “sorry” (for nothing) and…

Feelings?

I wasn’t allowed to have feelings or they were purposely and maliciously twisted for the purposes of my abusers.  Stop the feelings – stop my abusers controlling me.   This brings me to self care #5 Allowing myself to feel all emotions – joy and anger are the most difficult for me. https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2017/07/16/25-obvious-non-obvious-self-care-issues-complex-trauma-survivors-struggle-with-lilly-hope-lucario/   Judy’s…

Self forgiveness

Months ago, I read this article on self-care, then I immersed myself in a huge costume project that self care came so far down the list I was down right mean to myself.  I focused on finishing, DH(darling husband) made sure I ate and sewed for me when others decided the project was too big…

I can be

flexible without getting bent out of shape. At school our principal challenged us to do something new this year.  Gear it up.  I decided with the many changes and different request I decided that I would not let all the changes bend me out of shape.  One of the challenges for a person living with…

Hazards of Hyper-Focus

Are you one of those people that can focus so completely that the whole house could burn down while reading a book?  Or focused on the task at hand someone speaks to you and you jump out of your skin?  Or how about working so focused that the janitor locking up wonders why you are…

Let go

I made plans.  They got changed but I am struggling with letting go of the original plan.  Last night in karate we were practicing actual physical contact with the idea of not hurting the other person but showing the move correctly.  One of the other people did something I didn’t expect.  I stood there frozen…

Symptoms and Learning

The past week I encountered a variety of web pages sharing different perspectives on symptoms of complex PTSD. The first one is from a known source The Mighty.  This page hosts sections of their page devoted to different challenges.  Their articles are often thought provoking and challenging.  To me, for the most part, fairly accurate. …

Relief

Facing my fears sometimes reduces them to miniature.  Other times with the help of a knowledgeable person I am able to make realistic choices that fit into my life.  I am given another new challenge that is listed as wait and see.  I am learning to be very comfortable with wait and see. Patience is…