Sometimes when I talk about having PTSD the response I get is “You’re too normal.” First off, normal is a setting on a drier. Yes, I am high functioning because I worked hard at it. People seeing me now don’t know about the 3 years in bed, the 7 years towards recovery layered on with…
How many of us feel tied to our jobs, families, past or other anchors or bricks in our lives? The United States declared their Independence from England. Unheard of. How strange! England ruled the World…..the sun never set on their Empire. The Upstarts that wrote out and established their Independence changed the World in a…
In the darkest room a single candle sheds the greatest light. The consequences of sexual abuse darkens a life. Feelings of unworthiness, disgust, self-distrust, sorrow, and so many other negative feelings crowd out light….like a heavy thick smokey fog choking out life. Post is titled inspiration. Darken rooms, darken lives hardly seem inspiring. I didn’t…
I saw myself as small, helpless, dominated, squashed….a worm with no back bone. If anyone called me a victor I would look at them very strangely. I did not see myself in a positive light. Yet, I believed I could change. I chose change, lots of change. As I changed, I started looking at different…
To me, this was the hardest to overcome but once I did, learning about my own power is a key element to my continued healing. As long as I believed I was helpless, I could not believe I could be responsible for my change. I needed to take back my power. I needed to believe…
For the most part, I don’t like to look at what ifs? Leaves me playing a game of creating a life that was never there. How ever, what if I didn’t have a counselor? Sadly, this is a growing issue. Two things are hitting hard. Many insurances don’t cover mental health appointments or the number…
I am responsible for protecting myself. Too long I waited for my mother, my father, my husband, someone to protect me…..I waited……..and waited. Then I started counseling. Maybe the counselor would protect me? Nope. He informed me that he would teach me how to protect myself. NO That’s it. One word, no explanation needed. I…
Self-care is not selfish. Hard to believe this or implement it if as a child you are told that getting enough to eat is being selfish. I was told I had to go hungry so my brother could have seconds. Sad thing, food would spoil in the refrigerator because it wasn’t eaten fast enough. As…
Please read that title with a ton of sarcasm. Has anyone made a sarcasm font yet? Self-care #12 Healthy eating and sleeping. https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2017/07/16/25-obvious-non-obvious-self-care-issues-complex-trauma-survivors-struggle-with-lilly-hope-lucario/ Judy’s perspective is here: https://theprojectbyjudy.wordpress.com/2017/11/16/self-care-12-of-25/ I agree with Judy, we both wrote earlier blogs about eating habits or lack of good ones. Mine is written here: https://ptsd-acceptingcopingthriving.com/2018/01/17/eat-your-vegetables/ Healthy sleeping, those two…
Who needs enemies? An idiom that points out how some friends act more like enemies. Some family members are the worse thing that happen to a child. Growing up in unhealthy relationships, I didn’t know how to respond to healthy people. Self care concepts continued, #9: I struggle with making healthy relationship choices. I always…
PTSD - Accepting, Coping, Thriving 