Self -regulation button broke

Been a rough 2 or 3 months.  Tons of family stuff happening and changes at work.  I realized recently I must have broken my self-regulation button or turned it off.  That button that when pushed you do the adult thing when you are supposed to do it.  Not the broken one of not going to…

A week later

I took off school today for probably one of the strangest reasons so I didn’t explain too much.  I thought I was doing fairly well with the news of my mother dying.  Then yesterday, I received a sympathy card.  To say I didn’t handle it well would be a gross understatement.  I knew the sender…

Plan for the holidays

Right now we are twixt and between holiday’s.  Memorial day is coming up in the United States. Planning in advance for holidays gives you time to make a plan and practice. Holidays include birthdays, anniversaries of negative events, family events, graduations and all the holidays that hit the calendars. Just before Mother’s Day Mighty posted…

Feelings?

I wasn’t allowed to have feelings or they were purposely and maliciously twisted for the purposes of my abusers.  Stop the feelings – stop my abusers controlling me.   This brings me to self care #5 Allowing myself to feel all emotions – joy and anger are the most difficult for me. https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2017/07/16/25-obvious-non-obvious-self-care-issues-complex-trauma-survivors-struggle-with-lilly-hope-lucario/   Judy’s…

Don’t tell me why

I get articles about PTSD and depression…Every so often one of the articles tells me how I feel and why.  Don’t just don’t.  This particular article was about depression and stated why I feel depressed.  The article did share one of the causes of depression but it is not my cause for depression.  Over years…