A minor annoying experience suddenly goes haywire with emotions that are over-the-top extreme flashback. I am no longer a confident adult but a cringing terrified/angry/helpless child. I know logically that the event did not warrant the level of emotion that washed over me like tsunami. Several of these stood out in my memory. When I…
And a nightmare for me, literally. Some nights I stay awake not because I am thrilled with what I am doing but terrified of letting my brain connect with my subconscious. Nasty things in there and I work hard at keeping them separated. 19. Sleeping.. I’ve slept about 6 hours in the last 48. https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2017/07/16/25-obvious-non-obvious-self-care-issues-complex-trauma-survivors-struggle-with-lilly-hope-lucario/…
I have nightmares. I always had nightmares. When I was little I would complain about my nightmares and I was told they would go away when I grew up. They didn’t go away, therefore, I never grew up. When I started counseling, I averaged 3 hours of sleep per night. That meant at least half…
I believe one of the predominant feelings of people with PTSD is “Tired of being Tired.” The interesting thing about tiredness is it comes from multiple sources. Hyper-vigilance sustained over long periods of time puts a lot of wear and tear on the body. Super alert constantly leaves little time for the body to rejuvenate. …
Depression is one of the symptoms of PTSD. I realized after several years of counseling I use depression to put a damper on the anger generated by the hurt, fear and frustration I experience every night in my nightmares. If I am depressed and tired enough, I won’t have nightmares. A break of sorts. I…
Recently I read several Facebook pages that are posting things to encourage those that have PTSD. I found many of the post to be a daily boost of encouragement. But I also saw a trend that bothers me. People stated how they hated their memories, hated PTSD, hate what this does to them then complain…
Deciding to write this blog was a huge decision. I debated. Talked myself out of it repeatedly. Started it then didn’t touch it for a few months. Recommitted to sharing my belief about PTSD. I am tired of some people condemning me for events that happened in kindergarten and through out a childhood that had…
PTSD - Accepting, Coping, Thriving 