Helplessness

To me, this was the hardest to overcome but once I did, learning about my own power is a key element to my continued healing.  As long as I believed I was helpless, I could not believe I could be responsible for my change.  I needed to take back my power.  I needed to believe…

Financial Responsibility

  21. Being financially responsible for myself so I don’t have to still be dependent on abusers and then hating myself for it. https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2017/07/16/25-obvious-non-obvious-self-care-issues-complex-trauma-survivors-struggle-with-lilly-hope-lucario/ Judy writes: https://theprojectbyjudy.wordpress.com/2017/12/13/self-care-21-of-25/ Couple of years ago my World crash when I realized I do not have the physical stamina to hold down a full time high responsibility job.  I can…

Decisions decisions

I felt like a complete dweeb when I started college.  My parents made all my major decisions for me including what to study in college, where I went to college, and basically what I wore to college.  Yup, I was controlled that completely.  Teenagers don’t magically turn into decision making adults without making their own…

PTSD gets blamed

One of the most fascinating insights to come out of my counseling is PTSD isn’t always to blame.  Sometimes life is plain hard no matter what your past experiences threw at you.  I appreciated Annie Wright sharing her perspective on Adulting and Humaning.  I blame PTSD but sometimes: Adulting’s not always easy. And humaning can…

The Buck Stops With You!

I am going to respond to Pavelka Health Revolution Pavelka Toolkit The only person who is responsible for your life is YOU! That may sound harsh but it can also be enlightening as YOU have control over YOU and nobody else – so if something does not feel right you can change it. This is…

Who’s responsibility is it?

One thing I learned from reading other people’s blogs is the problem of deciding, “Who’s responsibility is it?”  Many people that feel overwhelmed and exhausted often take on the responsibilities of others.  From an early age, I was taught to care for my mother instead of expecting my mother to care for me.  I took…

Why not? (Part 2)

This was supposed to happen yesterday.  It didn’t.  I am paying for ignoring my body’s quiet plea to slow down a little.  I’m doing all sorts of good cool stuff but just a little too much (a lot too much.)  I keep trying to not allow PTSD to run my life but ignore it too…