Routines are built to get things done. Most people don’t write down basics like shower, get dressed, eat. They don’t need to. They simply do them every day without fail. Not so with an abuse survivor. CPTSD disables a person from believing that they should be taken care of by themselves or anyone else. https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2017/07/16/25-obvious-non-obvious-self-care-issues-complex-trauma-survivors-struggle-with-lilly-hope-lucario/…
I am a member of a CPTSD group on Facebook. Someone posed the question what is the difference between a panic attack and an anxiety attack. My gut feeling is a panic attack is like a spike in fear that is difficult or impossible to control….anxiety attack is the struggle I go with many days…
I try to care for myself but I seem to put hurdles in front of my that make it more difficult. I am cutting soy out of my diet. But then I look longingly at the bake goodies that all have soy in them. Reading the label 20 times does not change the ingredients. However,…
What? I am supposed to self-care? Don’t I have enough to do caring for everyone else? https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2017/07/16/25-obvious-non-obvious-self-care-issues-complex-trauma-survivors-struggle-with-lilly-hope-lucario/ Judy, my sister, found this link and shared it on her project/blog. Last round of 25 things my sister wrote after I did. This time I think I will reverse it and post the link to her…
***********Trigger warning************* written specifically for those with a strong Christian background. I was taught methodically and purposefully to neglect myself, to serve others, and self-care was being selfish. Lies upon lies. Martyrs come in all shapes and sizes. Putting a cause, others, and anything else before yourself is foolish at best and down right…
I wanted to share this link and it posted the whole blog page. Blog stuff still surprises me from time to time. I found it shared on a Facebook page but wanted to get the original person credit. So here is the whole thing. http://ptsdconfessions.tumblr.com/post/159472319606/so-here-are-the-books-sorry-they-look-so-blue
I’m combining these next two things that I did. This was a monster hurdle because everyone loves someone that does everything for them, right? Yup, lots of rewards but sometimes at a terrible cost. The cost of myself, my relationships, my dreams, my needs didn’t exist. 12. “I feel the need to please everybody I…
One of the confusing things that my counselor spent many hours trying to help me understand was I needed to fire my mean boss. That mean boss that expects me to arrive early and leave late. The one that doesn’t allow any sick time. Punishes me for not doing enough. Rages at me for the…
End of the school year is always hectic and busy. Big events occur with a few extras thrown in. Fashion show is this week, culmination of months of work. Sick teacher had me subbing today…always wearing for me. Relief of a major burden leaves energy and room in my life for things I love. I…
I thought a lot about what I wrote over the past couple of days. The articles looking for an easy answer, the one about people oversimplifying problems, and my rant. I realize that every single abuse survivor walks around with a different set of scars and reactions to the World. I am making this list…
PTSD - Accepting, Coping, Thriving 