Draining the Lake

I entered counseling with the idea of getting marriage counseling.  After years of raising kids I felt like there was this stranger in my house that I was married to.  I was in for a real shock when after 2 months the counselor explained that my reactions to the homework assignments were not what he…

The Law of Attraction

Thorn in my side….. Stated by Pavelka, “…is absolute. What you think about, you bring about. If you focus on the bad, more bad will come, but if you focus on how you want things to be and you believe and picture it as though it is already here, it will turn up.” This to…

kobayashi maru

I had to look it up because I did not remember the reference to the Star Trek movies.  This is a no win test faced by all Cadets in the Starfleet Academy.  (Yes, I watched the original Star Trek before it was a rerun.)  The meme on Facebook showed a bumper sticker, “My ship just…

Brains lie

Hardest thing for me to accept about myself is my brain lies to me.  What I believe is the truth isn’t always true.  Another blogger shared her experience with her brain lying to her.  Her experience of contemplating suicide may be triggering for some people.  However, if suicide is starting to look reasonable, please, seek…

On Rough days

One of the frustrations of PTSD is after a wonderful experience, a crash often follows close on or a trigger seems 10 times more annoying when you felt on top of the world to slam down again.  On these rough days I like to remember the quote I saw from several sources.  (Not sure who…

Visual description

I am always trying to look for ways to make concrete examples of abstract concepts.  I heard numerous times how I need to get back to what I was before trauma….problem…my trauma began when I was 5 years old.  I don’t think going back is a viable option for me.  I have a series of…

9 myths

I believe there are a lot more than 9 myths about PTSD.  If anything, it is a good start on listing them. The hardest thing for me was I had PTSD for 40 years not knowing what it was called.  I had symptoms.  I saw one doctor after another.  No answers.  Many medical tests.  Still…

Over spill

I have a lot of respect for the military.  I appreciate what I’ve read written for them.  It gave me a starting point and a feeling of support.  I also used several ideas from the articles I read.  PTSD Break the Silence is one of the Facebook pages I follow.  Their perspective is from the…