Every once in a while I back myself into a corner with my writing and I am not sure how to proceed. I am writing about different tools for a coping toolbox. PTSD is an extreme emergency survival tool. Unfortunately, it is like driving a tank down a residential street. Gas mileage is terrible and it tears up the road, not very useful for day-to-day living. I am sharing some of the tools I was taught to replace the PTSD tank. One of those tools is religion, universe, or whatever entity a person considers bigger than just this life. Some people go so far as to say religion is a crutch for the weak. Many point out the destruction and abuse perpetrated in the name of religion. I don’t have answers. What I do know is personally for me, my faith in Christ was the rock at the bottom. When I hit rock bottom, it was my faith in Christ that helped me inch forward through those dark times.
In college, I had a physics professor throw out the statement, “There is no God.” Fellow students erupted into a heated debate trying to prove there was a God. I watched the whole scenario. No one took a personal stand. They wanted to ‘prove’ something that couldn’t be proven. I just kept watching. The end of class came with heated bickering still bouncing between students. When most of the class cleared, I approached the professor, I asked him, “Between you and me, do you believe in a supreme being?”
I still remember the grin on the teacher’s face, a bit like the cat right after the canary has gone missing, he answered me. “Any scientist, I don’t mean those social scientist they aren’t real scientists, knows their is a supreme being. The probability is too high for all this to happen by accident.”
I suffered from religious persecution. Part of the abuse I experienced was religious abuse. By the time I was 12 years old, I read the New Testament for myself. I couldn’t rely on adults that twisted scriptures to suit their own agenda. I found out for myself. For me, Jesus is the Christ sent by a loving Heavenly Father, leading me home. It is one of the most powerful tools in my tool box. When all else fails, Christ is the Rock at the bottom.