I browse through the BBC on a regular basis. I learned that Yahoo and MSN mostly post fluff news. If I want to know what is going on the world I check out the BBC. They posted an article that I read with interest.
I’m curious how many of those that never felt emotion were interviewed to see if they were abused as a child? Yup, followed a link to Wise Geek describing alexithymia. http://www.wisegeek.org/what-is-alexithymia.htm They confirm that many with alexithymia are survivors of childhood abuse.
I’ve experienced this only my counselor called it dissociation at a severe level. This is where my photography opened up my world of emotion. It gave me a voice. I took hundreds of pictures of gray.
This was my emotional world. Gray with few variations. Many sessions in counseling were spent connecting my emotions to my conscious understanding of the world of words. It was painful. Slow arduous work. While I was in counseling, I would cry more in one week then I did in 10 years before counseling. I’ve added the richness and depth of emotion to my life. I added color.
I could feel no sorrow, no suffering, no anger, no sadness however, I also forfeited all happiness, all excitement, all connection, all joy. I am thankful for a counselor that courageously navigated me into a life with feelings that I felt all the time instead of only occasionally. Emotions add depth and richness that logic can’t comprehend.