Why do I feel so extremely irritated by this article?
It is an interesting thought out explanation how trauma affects the brain. So why do I feel so pissed off, angry, upset, almost didn’t share the link. I left it hanging out on my browser annoying me everyday because I wanted to figure why it annoys me. I finally realized the assertion that our mind is sending a “False Alarm.” There was nothing false about the trauma I experienced. My abusers tried to tell me that what they did wasn’t that bad, didn’t really hurt, just my imagination. It was bad damn it. I live with the consequences of someone else behaving badly for years with no time off for good behavior. I don’t want to accept the constant feeling of being alert constantly. Then some human bent on getting in the line that is moving during rush hour even if they have to run me over to do it. I am constantly scanning. So the twitch of the front wheels and instantly knew the person was head into my lane no matter where I was. I remind myself that it isn’t personal, probably didn’t see me in the mirror, or they really are a jerk and I am glad I don’t know them. Heavy sigh. My brain was on high alert for such a long time, it became a habit. Current events reinforce the high alert feeling.
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