“You don’t have a right to the cards you believe you should have been dealt. You have an obligation to play the hell out of the cards you’re holding.” ~ Cheryl Strayed
My experience for the last two months was to fulfill one of my “what ifs.” What if I became a teacher like I wanted instead of going into engineering because my parents thought it would be more lucrative. I came to the conclusion I would make a terrible teacher. I am so exhausted. It is like the students suck all the life out of me and there is nothing left over for anything else. I am glad now that I am not usually a teacher. Unusual circumstances changed my position a little. I am looking forward to being the Instructional assistant again. I learned so much from this experience but I have little energy left for writing my blog posts or spending time with family or attending church. I don’t know how to set up the boundaries I need to survive. Fortunately, I have an awesome co-teacher that is there half the time. I want the kids to succeed but it is a little difficult when schools are more worried about testing than about students learning. Tomorrow, or rather today, I get a break to catch up, more testing. This experience is opening my eyes to my unique position with an awful childhood I am able to get a sense that is going wrong with the students. Health issues, family crisis, car accidents, and other major events challenge the students. I know what to tell them to meet life challenges. I fought through challenges before, I can do it again. I can teach the students how to cope with tough situations.