Barriers to sharing

Hectic week but I am forging forward with the lists of best practice principles on Blueknot…https://www.blueknot.org.au/Workers-Practitioners/For-Health-Professionals/Resources-for-Health-Professionals/Best-Practice-Guidelines One of the difficult things about counseling is sharing an ugly past.  They point out that diminishing, discounting, and ignoring what happened are all part of the issues centered on sharing past events.  Blueknot points out several parts of…

Helplessness

To me, this was the hardest to overcome but once I did, learning about my own power is a key element to my continued healing.  As long as I believed I was helpless, I could not believe I could be responsible for my change.  I needed to take back my power.  I needed to believe…

Sleep is self care

And a nightmare for me, literally.  Some nights I stay awake not because I am thrilled with what I am doing but terrified of letting my brain connect with my subconscious.  Nasty things in there and I work hard at keeping them separated. 19. Sleeping.. I’ve slept about 6 hours in the last 48. https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2017/07/16/25-obvious-non-obvious-self-care-issues-complex-trauma-survivors-struggle-with-lilly-hope-lucario/…

Multifaceted Challenge

I put off for days writing this post.  How can I write about a problem that I haven’t solved?  My DH pointed out yesterday how painful it is for him to watch me self abuse my body by not eating healthy foods, staying up extremely late, and generallly doing this that are harmful for my…

He has my back

Being married to a person with PTSD is tough.  Ask my husband how difficult and unreasonable I can be.  Counseling so many years ago started with marriage counseling.  It quickly became obvious that very little marriage counseling could occur while I was so damaged and my thinking distorted by dissociation.  My husband went with me…

Back to blogging

I hadn’t planned on an extended break.  I could handle this and everything else.  I was sooooo wrong.  I spent the last 3 months swallowed up by costumes for this show. This is our cast.  Each one played two and sometimes 3 parts.  Thankful for those that helped but blown away that I was in…

Run Run as fast as you can

I quit sewing costumes for plays years ago because they get so crazy with fittings, alterations, sewing, and planning… sounds like reverse order but that is how crazy plays can get.  I volunteered to help with a Christmas musical at church thinking it would have at the most a dozen parts.  Oops.  A cast of…