Quarantine was a natural boundary. No one comes in and no one goes out. Boring but predictable. Things are opening up some places but with a new restriction or boundary. You have to wear a mask. NOT going well with that one. Someone chided me that it is just a piece of fabric. Yes, a piece of fabric over my face just like my abuser would do to me, helped muffle screams. I put on a mask and my anxiety shoots through the roof. Try to take the mask off and people accusing me of attempted murder or threaten my family by saying if I don’t ware a mask they will die. Awesome, just like my abuser. Horrifying to realize my abuser is dead and he was replicated to millions. Ugh and double Ugh. So what boundaries can I set? Well, I am hiding on Facebook people that bully me about wearing a mask. I hide post and walk away from all discussions about mask. I posted how I feel twice and got lectured both times, more people to hide or delete. Also learned a cool trick, if someone answers cruelly on my comments or post, I delete my comment and theirs goes away too. I got a little of my power back. I also stepped back away from Facebook, visiting less often. Keeping myself busy with other things to do.
Pondering over this situation I remember a quote from Viktor Frankl author and survivor of the Concentration camps:
“Everything can be taken from a man but one thing: the last of the human freedoms—to choose one’s attitude in any given set of circumstances, to choose one’s own way.”
I can choose kindness when people are cruel. I can choose inner peace when the outside world is chaotic. I can choose crocheting over reading ridiculous opinions in the news. I can choose to do my own homework on an issue instead of believing talking heads/celebrities/politicians with their own agendas. I can believe faith in Christ, over fear of people gone loopy. I can choose……you read that correctly I can choose my attitude, my use of time and most importantly I choose to stay home so I don’t need to wear a mask. Yup, I can choose.
One of my finished projects.