What is Cognitive dissonance?

I wrestled with cognitive dissonance but I didn’t know what it was or why it was sooooo uncomfortable.  In counseling, I encountered extreme cognitive dissonance when my counselor tried to convince me I was a good person.  Most people believe they are a good person.  From the time I was small I was told repeatedly…

Teacher Appreciation

“When the student is ready, the teacher will appear”  Buddhist Proverb quotes I remembered this quote and thought of all the times I needed a teacher….I looked for them.  The hardest part was getting myself to the point of being ready to listen.  I believe the teachers are there all the time but I don’t…

Body memories

  Awareness of childhood sexual abuse “We only believe those thoughts which have been conceived not in the brain but in the whole body” – W.B. Yeats * The process triggered by working with the brain and the body in conjunction deepen cognitive development significantly in the areas of evaluating, analyzing, applying and remembering *…

Survival requires change

So does thriving. I am fascinated when two articles come together about the same time totally unconnected as to how I got them.  Facebook for one and an email for the other.  I am recognizing in myself a need for more change.  I equate my experience in counseling as doing something similar to changing my…

Reminder I survived

Thanks to Facebook I connected with Lilly Hope Lucario – Link below if you would like to connect too.  Her post encourage me and remind me there are many others struggling with CPTSD*. Healing From Complex Trauma and Ptsd/cptsd November 22, 2016 · I would like to say something to all complex trauma survivors…. We…

Busy Busy Busy

End of the school year is always hectic and busy.  Big events occur with a few extras thrown in.  Fashion show is this week, culmination of months of work.  Sick teacher had me subbing today…always wearing for me.  Relief of a major burden leaves energy and room in my life for things I love.  I…

Burden lifted

I ponder and wonder about things that happen in life.  I carried with me a terrible burden that my mother threatened suicide when I was a teenager because I wasn’t doing enough to help her.  Yet she resented everything I did to help her.  I carried this terrible secret and burden for years.  Last night…

Cost of Depression

This week I am struggling with a deep bout of depression.  I know the source.  My mother stomped on a hot button that was buried since high school.  A button that I only vaguely alluded to when I was in 10 years of counseling.  Depression holds down the volcanic rage.  Yes, depression is a tool…

Family Headache or heartache

Almost everyone has challenges with their family…for one there is history….sometimes a long, ugly history.  Expectations are often higher for family than for friends.  Walking away from family can be complicated or feels impossible.  Guilt trips and button pushing can abound.  I also seen another side of family filled with acceptance, encouragement, standing by each…

Interested in learning Coding

Yes this is a random post… Students at our high school are learning computer programing using https://code.org/ I finished course 2 and about half way through course 3.  I believe if I had learned programing this way, I would enjoy it a lot more.  Zombies and bees running mazes.  Bees collecting nectar and making honey. …