Quotes to confuse

I like reading inspirational quotes….if you pick the right quotes….life gets confusing. http://www.curejoy.com/content/11-inspiring-quotes-will-give-needed-push-life/ If you don’t like how things are, change it! You’re not a tree. Jim Rohn Read more at: https://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/quotes/j/jimrohn147488.html Bloom Where you are Planted…   Look twice before you leap. Charlotte Bronte Read more at: https://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/quotes/c/charlotteb131925.html You can’t get anywhere in life…

Normal….hard to believe

Medical tests came back….I’m on the low end of normal for thyroid, my blood pressure is on the high end of normal, and I am really allergic to something not yet identified.  Problems come in 3s, 4s, 5s or any other number they want to.  But the doctor said that all my medical tests came…

Happiness is a choice Sort of

I’ve heard it all my life that happiness is a choice, sort of.  What I couldn’t keep up was the demand that I be happy constantly and any time I was less than happy I was flawed, needed fixing, or needed to snap out of it.  I am happy, sad, funny, weird, crying, excited, and…

Muddled Mess

I believe one of the difficult things about PTSD is it gets muddled and mashed up into a terrible mess.  I lived with PTSD over 40 years not knowing I had it.  It was disguised as over active imagination, aka nightmares, depression, hormones,  being a girl, moody, and a host of other things.  Psychcentral shared…

Raising Awareness

One of the basic tenants of counseling is raising awareness of what abuse is.  Most people will shake their heads and claim….I do know what it is.  I can’t tell you the shock I felt when emotional abuse was first outlined for me.  This is a link that shares questions to consider if I the…

One Done One to go

These last 6 weeks have this constant energy drain of unknowns with my body.  I had emergency surgery with biopsies the first part of December.  I had to wait until today to hear the results.  This morning I accepted in my mind the possibility I have cancer, again.  I felt atremendous relief when the biopsies…

No coherent thoughts

I am nearing the end of 6 weeks without my thyroid medication.  I am barely functioning.  I just want this over with.  5 days and counting until this is done.  Dear Doctors, walk a day in my shoes before ordering a test that requires me to go without my medication.  Feeling lousy and knowing why.

Building your toolbox

I finished Pavelka’s toolbox I have additional tools beyond the ones he mentions.  My counselor worked at making sure I have a well stocked toolbox for how to handle different situations.  I learned not to use a sledge hammer when a ball ping hammer will do.    I still use some of my heavy duty arsenal,…

Fear – Friend or Foe

I am fascinated that the last item on Pavelka’s toolbox is understanding fear.  My counselor spent many, many sessions on this one subject.  He explained to me that I lived a fear based life.  I made decisions not on what I wanted but what I was afraid would happen if I didn’t take a certain…