Learning from a child

An important part of surviving PTSD is allowing myself to experience missed childhood adventures and feelings. Early in my life I was trained not to feel emotions.  When I started feeling my emotions I spent much of my time trying to name them and understand them.  I looked at each one from every angle.  I…

Combinations of thoughts

I am blessed with awesome Facebook pages that encourage me and inspire me to be better.  They also assure me that I am of worth just as I am. These are a couple of pictures that came through my timeline that I saved to use here. Often when I am trying to select ways to…

Wishing I was in counseling

Tonight is one of those nights that I wish I was still in counseling with my first counselor.  He let me email him when I felt tremendous internal pressure and I needed to let off steam without harming anyone, myself included.  He wouldn’t always answer.  Many times it would be a short acknowledgement that we…

Sharing my thoughts

I share my experience with PTSD with dissociation at a severe level because I want to let others know they are not alone.  I have no military experience.  My combat zone was called home and neighborhood.  The area I lived was considered a “good” neighborhood with plenty of doctors, lawyers and teachers. The worse abuser…

Counselors

I talk often about counseling, for a reason.  I had an amazing counselor that from the beginning of our work explained that his job was to work himself out of a job.  His goal was to teach me the skills I needed to live so I didn’t need a counselor to tell me what to…

Humility

What does humility have to do with PTSD? From Wikipedia I found this bit of information… The term “humility” comes from the Latin word humilitas, a noun related to the adjective humilis, which may be translated as “humble”, but also as “grounded”, “from the earth”, or “low”, since it derives in turns from humus (earth).…

Building a tool box

PTSD follows a life changing event.  Not everyone that has a life changing event has PTSD but everyone with PTSD had a life changing event or series events.  CPTSD, Complex PTSD, is difficult for some people because there is not one main event but many things that build up to create a dysfunctional way of…