Mourn with those the mourn

Sorrow, sadness, grief expressed and felt for those that suffer through out the world.  It is OK to grieve together.  Yes, symptoms of PTSD such as anxiety, overwhelming emotions, and nightmares, to name a few, may increase during times of tragedy.  I do not believe that grieving with France, lessens or negates, the sorrow caused…

Emotions or not

Emotions are often wished a way… I wish I wasn’t sad. I wish I wasn’t angry. I wish I could control my emotions. Sadly, some wishes are fulfilled until no emotions are felt any more.  They have a psychology word for it dissociation. It is extremely unhealthy.  It is grey and nothing. I fenced myself…

Too Sensitive

I complained to my counselor that someone close to me accused me of being ‘too sensitive.’  My counselor promptly replied, “You are.”  I felt betrayed and hurt.  He then went on to explain.  Think about a cut that is healing.  You touch the new scar tissue and the entire area is very tender and sensitive. …

Cry Alone

PTSD symptoms vary.  One of the ones I didn’t show at first was crying.  Many survivors talk about the flood of tears that just kept coming.  At one point I didn’t think I had any depression because I didn’t cry.  I finally checked out a book from the library about depression and realized I had…

The ‘I’ Statement

I believe this is one of the most powerful tools I was ever blessed with.  Thank you first counselor.  He taught me the power of the ‘I’.  I came to his office complaining, “He did that…..” “She did this……”  I didn’t understand that as long as I phrased all my thinking in what the other…

Anger as a tool

Yup, I needed anger in my tool box.  I don’t mean the kind of out of control that shuts off your brain type anger.  Babies use anger to get their needs met.  However, let a baby cry long enough, often enough the baby stops fighting for what it needs and dies.  With that side note,…

Emotional Blackouts

Another name for numbing, dissociation, loosing heart, deep depression, void…..similar to physical pain a person can only take so much emotional pain than the emotional heart shuts down.  One of the distressful symptoms of PTSD is this emotional shutting down.  The mind still works.  I felt aware of other people I just felt so shutout…

Known Trigger

I avoided writing about Mother’s day on this blog.  I spent several posts on my other blog working out how to get through the day.  Mother’s day is a known trigger for me.  It has more land mines than a war zone mine field.  I know it is a problem for me.  I prepared for…