I learned over 15 years ago that I lived with PTSD since I was 5 years old. No one recognized the symptoms. I always acted that way. The diagnosis gave me a word to research. Parameters for finding more answers. Also a community of others that shared an experience almost impossible to describe to someone…
I backed off from all things computer. I am refocusing on family, friends and sanity. My friend let me review the mess I tumble into. It wasn’t actually my mess but choices of others affected me in a negative way. Work went from mildly stressful to job hunting to didn’t want to get out of…
I decided when I started this blog to tell it like it is…all of it, warts and all. Some of the encouraging pages I studied glossed over the tough days. They jump forward to the future saying tomorrow will be better without addressing the distress today. I don’t do time warps. On some days, PTSD…
Tonight is one of those nights that I wish I was still in counseling with my first counselor. He let me email him when I felt tremendous internal pressure and I needed to let off steam without harming anyone, myself included. He wouldn’t always answer. Many times it would be a short acknowledgement that we…
Counseling was a weekly challenge to my life views. There wasn’t a single part of my life that wasn’t pushed to the max during counseling. I continue the process. Before jumping to the idea that I am suggesting you doubt yourself, I learned to challenge long held beliefs. If you always do what you always…
One thing I learned from reading other people’s blogs is the problem of deciding, “Who’s responsibility is it?” Many people that feel overwhelmed and exhausted often take on the responsibilities of others. From an early age, I was taught to care for my mother instead of expecting my mother to care for me. I took…
I share about thriving. I share about my progress. When I hit another PTSD flare up, I feel guilty writing about how great things can become. Unfortunately, setbacks, triggers, and times of struggling happen again and again. I learned this past few months that hitting a rough patch doesn’t mean I’m not progressing. I got…
I worked hard through 10 years of counseling. Then every so often PTSD gets the upper hand. I slide back down into the pit of gurgling unresolved emotions with slick steep sides and no rope thrown to me. PTSD is an on going battle. I start to believe I have it whipped and it sweeps…
I found an article that I’m going to add my perspective. It is fairly long so I plan to break it up over a couple of days. Here’s the link to the original: http://medprecautions.com/23-things-i-wish-people-understood-about-ptsd/ I didn’t find the author’s name. But I will add my perspective to each part. PTSD is as real as…
I learned this from David Rutherford team Froglogic: http://www.teamfroglogic.com/ I decided to do a bit of a search to find out what others thought of this quote. The best answer Yahoo came up with was “since you survived yesterday and yesterday is over with….that is the easy day.” https://answers.yahoo.com/question/index;_ylt=A0LEVvOCwaZV7EUAquYnnIlQ;_ylu=X3oDMTE0dTNjYXM4BGNvbG8DYmYxBHBvcwM2BHZ0aWQDRkZYVUkzNV8xBHNlYwNzcg–?qid=20100311192257AA2OCIz&p=the%20only%20easy%20day%20was%20yesterday This is the answer that resonated…
PTSD - Accepting, Coping, Thriving 