24 hours later

Interesting how sitting with your emotions for 24 hours can help them each have a turn center stage.  It sucked getting news about my mother’s death on facebook….the reality is my phone isn’t working well.  I put it on the charger and left to go shopping.  I was literally out of contact from any family. …

Stand up for yourself

To that nasty voice in your head.  Fire your mean boss.  The one that expects perfection the first time.  Expects you to work harder, longer, and more committed than any one else.  That boss in the mirror that criticizes your every move and points out every mistake.  One of the things that I appreciate about…

All emotions

I lived without emotions for quite a while.  I would file them under the ‘do not disturb box.’  I did this for a good reason.  Growing up in a home where being ’emotional’ was like the worse thing you could do, I stifled my emotions more and more.  Did not help growing up being a…

Science of Thriving

My counselor told me early on that his goal for me was to not just survive but to thrive.  Rah Rah Great….The next week I came back and asked, “What is thriving?”  At first he seemed to think I was jerking his chain then he realized I didn’t know what he meant, for real.  He…

Melt Down

I finally had my melt down.  I started spiraling down down down last February.  Yesterday DH helped me melt down at last.  There is something about rock bottom that helps me back up again.  It is like I can’t stop the spiral down until I hit a low low enough to stop, catch my breath,…

Battle of the mind

In some situations, there are limits I can’t change.  There are problems I can’t fix.  There are choices by other people, I can do nothing about.  If I sleep more, the nightmares will come, not perhaps, not maybe but come without fail.  If I work my self to exhaustion, my body will collapse, it does…