Crafting works

I’m always on the look out for articles that back up what I experienced.  One of them is doing crafts, drawing, or photography.  For me it is crocheting, for others knitting, or any of the other numerous creative endeavors that help a person feel more relaxed.  One of the benefits is the need to be…

Bitter or Better

Lack of choice nips at your hills with PTSD.  I do not have a choice when, where or why I have a flashback.  It happens, I deal with the consequences.  I didn’t have a choice about what happened to me.  I did learn in counseling that I do have a choice about my attitude, my…

You don’t know

what you don’t know. This week I was reminded something taught to me by my first counselor.  I was stumbling through several counseling sessions when I first started going, confused and resentful not understanding where he was trying to get me to go with my thinking.  I couldn’t grasp what he was trying to say. …

Guilt vs Guilt

Guilt is supposed to happen.  Very young children feel guilt.  I notice my dog seems to feel guilt as she slinks into a room she knows she is not allowed to go. Guilt dictionary meaning http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/guilt noun 1. the fact or state of having committed an offense, crime, violation, or wrong, especially against moral or penal…

Happen again

“You worry about things that will never happen.”  Sadly, this was a comment used to put me down.  No one believed what happened on 9/11 when planes fell from the sky.  Those that predicted such an extreme event before that day were ridiculed and told they were ridiculous that Americans would never be attacked on…

Counter Act Self-Neglect

Self-nurturing is the way to counter act self-neglect.  One of the harder things I had to do to was to recognize what I needed.  I was trained to self-neglect.  If you aren’t fed when you are hungry the concept that my needs could be met was a bit far fetched.  The first portion of this…

It could always be worse

I’ve heard it over and over and over.  The cancer could have been worse, the nightmares could have been worse, my childhood could have been worse.  That’s true.  Here are a few things I do to myself that make things worse. Self-neglect.  I’m home writing this post because I neglected my health and now I…

Storms

I learned over 15 years ago that I lived with PTSD since I was 5 years old.  No one recognized the symptoms.  I always acted that way.  The diagnosis gave me a word to research.  Parameters for finding more answers.  Also a community of others that shared an experience almost impossible to describe to someone…