I started in high school. I was tired of name calling, stupid, ding-a-ling, lights are on but nobody is home. I wanted to ‘prove’ I was smart. I studied like crazy and got straight A’s. I was thrilled and so excited…the name calling persisted. I maintained a 3.79 grad point average without weighted grades. I…
I did it for years. I negated every and any compliment I received. If someone said I did something well, I pointed out what I messed up. Every compliment was turned aside or ignored. I wouldn’t….couldn’t see myself as a good person, so compliments must be a lie. Turned my world upside down and inside…
The list of things I do as an adult that are similar to many other people that are survivors is daunting. https://themighty.com/2017/06/childhood-emotional-abuse-adult-habits/ When I started counseling, I did 25 out of 25. I’ve improved those numbers. I going to tackle some of these with information as to how I made my life better. “[I] can’t…
I’ve joined a PTSD Facebook page. This was one of the ideas to help remind yourself for self-protection. Ashley kindly gave me permission to share. Thank you Ashley I put on some dollar store temporary tattoos to help keep me safe tonight. I’ve had the worst weekend due to the holiday and have an extensive…
One of the main points of this blog is to share activities, changes, and thinking that have helped me cope with PTSD better after counseling than before. The huge division for me was BC before counseling and AC after counseling. There is a reason for this. Before counseling I didn’t know what was wrong with…
….is a good thing. Mighty shared a list of 25 things adults that experienced childhood abuse may do. https://themighty.com/2017/06/childhood-emotional-abuse-adult-habits/ When I started counseling I scored 25 out of 25. Ugh. After 10 years of counseling and 4 years working on my own I lowered my score by a lot. If I still do some of…
I took a PTSD quiz and missed one of the questions. Really, I live it every day. Then I realized that the question I missed is a common myth about children living in abuse. The question asked how students do in school. I answered get top grades. Nope the correct answer was get into trouble…
Sometimes a post fits on both pages. This is one of those posts. http://weareone-ruth.blogspot.com/2017/06/survival-tool-but.html Survival tool but….not a living tool. People pleasing is how I survived the insanity of growing up in a home with a demanding mother. By jumping through her hoops I got fed and fewer spankings. However, People pleasing has a…
I believe that every person with PTSD or not had difficulties with relationships because we are human. We don’t see things the same way. We don’t respond to stress in the same way. We all have different expectations. However, PTSD and trauma can add layers of difficulty that can be difficult to cut through. Me…
I work at a school where Early Childhood Education is one of the courses of study. High school students learn to be preschool teachers. I coined the motto, “Our Work is Child’s Play.” I help teach students the importance of play but I am lousy at playing. This link explains some of the reasons why…
PTSD - Accepting, Coping, Thriving 