Reviewing the year

My email reminder that it is time to pay for this website came.  I thought about the past year.  The posts, comments, and how much time I put into maintaining/adding content.  Some days the thoughts fly off my finger tips creating posts that I am pleased with.  Other days, well, are other days.  The main…

Can’t avoid Triggers

My counselor commented I was a field filled with trigger land mines.  Can’t avoid hitting them when they are everywhere.  I appreciate this morning reminder on Facebook. PTSD Break The Silence Because we often cannot avoid triggers, it is important to learn ways of coping with triggers. Effective, healthy coping strategies for lessening the impact…

Forums

I tried forums and online communities but sadly I get super overwhelmed by the concept I must read all of it.  I actually tried with one forum.  I spent hours a day until I realized, I can’t do it.  I can’t read and respond to everyone.  I realize that is not the purpose of forums. …

Explaining Stuck

I keep doing research and reading what others write about the challenges of PTSD.  One of the more perplexing terms used by counselors is the explanation that I am ‘Stuck.’  Well great, what does it mean and how do I get unstuck?  I imagined myself ‘stuck’ in quicksand, the more I struggled the more ‘stuck’…

Bleeding

This may be highly triggering for some people.  Proceed with caution. I wrote this early in my counseling. I was attempting to get across to my counselor the struggles I was having with emotional distress. I’m bleeding I go to my parents – I’m bleeding. Oh honey I’m sorry to hear that, here’s a little…

PTSD Resource

Many links, lots of information.  Post 9/11, PTSD became a part of a larger culture as people were traumatized watching the suffering of others.  A pivotal time that literally changed the views of everyone.  It rocked the world and opened discussion of how to treat those that suffer from witnessing traumatic events.  I haven’t explored…

Getting out of the hole

I’m not a soldier but this poem depicts why I write.  I was deep in a hole.  Fortunately, my counselor understood how to help me get out of my hole.  I want to pass on what I learned.  I still struggle with many things but I have a life now that 20 years ago I…

Logic loses

In the battle of the mind, logic loses. I am struggling with one of the techniques in Karate.  I know logically that it will work.  I successfully done it several times.  But every time I step up to the mat, I battle the terror again.  In my mind, I’m lying on the ground unable to…