The time has come

The time is now.  The time to prepare for the holidays is past.  They arrived officially for me today when I didn’t have to set my alarm.  I slept in until 7:00 AM, after I made myself go back to bed at my regular wake up time. My attitude will make all the difference.  Choose…

I’m sorry

  Thank you for being patient with me while I am working on the costumes.  I enjoyed watching Todd’s video on how often I do say I’m sorry and in the back of my mind I am feeling that I am apologizing for existing.  I am working on this.  One of my children pointed out…

He has my back

Being married to a person with PTSD is tough.  Ask my husband how difficult and unreasonable I can be.  Counseling so many years ago started with marriage counseling.  It quickly became obvious that very little marriage counseling could occur while I was so damaged and my thinking distorted by dissociation.  My husband went with me…

Back to blogging

I hadn’t planned on an extended break.  I could handle this and everything else.  I was sooooo wrong.  I spent the last 3 months swallowed up by costumes for this show. This is our cast.  Each one played two and sometimes 3 parts.  Thankful for those that helped but blown away that I was in…

Code words

I ran across an interesting article that shared the ‘Code Words’ people use to mask what they are really feeling.  https://themighty.com/2017/11/phrases-code-for-struggling-today-mental-health/ My children pointed out to me years ago that I lied all the time.  People would say, “Hi, how are you?”  And I would answer, “Fine.”  I would have a death grip on the…

Growing instead ……

Many times I would read about ‘releasing trauma’.  Many times I didn’t get it because mine didn’t feel that way.  Tonight I read an awesome post that shared another analogy that I really like.  Thank you Jeann for your willingness to share. Jeann Kezelman TOPIC: “Developmental Trauma CANNOT be released, instead it must be RE-PATTERNED”…

Looked it up

I am a member of a CPTSD group on Facebook.  Someone posed the question what is the difference between a panic attack and an anxiety attack.  My gut feeling is a panic attack is like a spike in fear that is difficult or impossible to control….anxiety attack is the struggle I go with many days…

I can be

flexible without getting bent out of shape. At school our principal challenged us to do something new this year.  Gear it up.  I decided with the many changes and different request I decided that I would not let all the changes bend me out of shape.  One of the challenges for a person living with…

Trusting Friends

Back in September my sister Judy shared an article on self-care.  I decided to write my perspective and share her link but then life happened for both of us.  I am not complaining or sad, it just happened.  A lot of what happened was good and awesomeness.  She got back on track with sharing her…