I talk openly about living with PTSD. Sometimes I am with my husband, DH Darling Husband. When we are together in contributes to the conversation and refers to OUR journey. His perspective is of seeing me suffer and work so hard and not being able to help. Or wanting to be there for me even…
Are you one of those people that can focus so completely that the whole house could burn down while reading a book? Or focused on the task at hand someone speaks to you and you jump out of your skin? Or how about working so focused that the janitor locking up wonders why you are…
of the season. With PTSD one of the things I am guaranteed is I mess up. The higher the stress the more spectacular the screw ups. I could beat myself up but what good would it do. Today I went into full retreat at work. A substitute teacher was talking about highly controversial subjects and…
I made plans. They got changed but I am struggling with letting go of the original plan. Last night in karate we were practicing actual physical contact with the idea of not hurting the other person but showing the move correctly. One of the other people did something I didn’t expect. I stood there frozen…
Canada’s Thanksgiving day already happened. In the United States we are coming up on the Holiday blitz – Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years followed by Valentine’s day. After my third year in counseling, my therapist pointed out how I wiped out each Holiday season. Well I am consistent in something. I learned to plan ahead…
Me too is a social campaign to raise awareness of sexual assault, intimidation and pain. Sadly, I saw one person post it is for WOMEN only….The person felt less because a man claimed the ME Too. Men are sexually assaulted. Of all the voices, they are silenced most. Now, they are being told they cannot…
I am writing several posts about acceptance…accepting myself, my diagnosis, my challenges. Along the way I noticed in my reading about acceptance that some people interpret acceptance as staying the way they are. I don’t believe this. I accept where I am but that doesn’t mean I plan to stay that way. I believe strongly…
I grew up kind of on the small size but I weighed as much as my older brother. Instead of looking into why my older brother was small I was lectured from age nine about losing weight. They didn’t compare me to other kids in my class. I was one of the smallest….but the lectures…
Some days I feel like “I got this I know what I’m doing.” The next day, not so much. I was introduced to Anne Grady and bought both of her books. Her first book I’m reading is Strong Enough. In her speech she had everyone raise their hand that survived their worse day. You got…
The one thing that as soon as you think you got it, you lose it. Too many times I confuse humility with humiliated. I am needing to sort this in my head after listening to inspiring talks about the necessity of humility. As a child, I was humiliated often. Actions and behaviors of others that…
PTSD - Accepting, Coping, Thriving 