Doesn’t change facts

Denial doesn’t change facts.  It is like the little kid hiding the cookie behind their back for anyone else to see then shaking their head no; they didn’t take a cookie.  Really Didn’t.  They keep shaking their head like the denial will change the facts.  It is a universal theme.  Dorthy is told to ignore…

Tired of being tired

I believe one of the predominant feelings of people with PTSD is “Tired of being Tired.” The interesting thing about tiredness is it comes from multiple sources.  Hyper-vigilance sustained over long periods of time puts a lot of wear and tear on the body.  Super alert constantly leaves little time for the body to rejuvenate. …

Invisible

Thank you to the lady that let me share her poetry.   The invisible illness I am a prisoner of my own body, Chained and a life proclaimed by pain. I am in a state of constant war, There are deep scars. There is no colour sharp enough to reflect my pain, There is no…

How one sees anxiety

Sometimes it helps to see another person’s view of anxiety.  It may not be your view.  You may experience it differently, however sometimes it is a relief to know that some of your perspectives are shared by someone else.   Love What Matters “To the man whose wife or partner has anxiety,You might have heard…

CPTSD

I was diagnosed with PTSD with dissociation at an extreme level over 12 years ago.  During that time PTSD was gaining recognition as being more than a soldier’s terror.  Sadly, this caused conflict and confusion.  Some soldiers thought that those not serving in the war didn’t have the ‘right’ to talk about their pain and…

Impact

*********Trigger Warning***********   I admire Lilly Hope Lucario.  Her blog is specifically for those that are survivors of sexual abuse.  I appreciate her sharing her ideas about surviving child sexual abuse.  I read one of her articles recently – Please be prepared for a tough read.  If you are not in a place ready to openly…

Not Good Enough

The last quote has two parts.  Blaming myself is part 1, part 2 is the constant feeling I am not good enough.  I’m not good enough parent, I’m not good enough photographer, I’m not good enough computer technician.  The list goes on and on and on.  I see myself as not enough. 23. “Blaming myself…

Sorry for saying sorry

My adult children scolded me for always apologizing, yes, I said I was sorry for saying sorry all the time.  As a child I was blamed for making people angry, for anything bad happening, and a child does think the world revolves around them so therefore they should apologize for bad things happening.  In divorce…