All things come to an end

I’m so glad they do.  I never counted so carefully the days until the end of school.  I’m exhausted.  I did something WAY outside of my comfort zone.  I was a part time substitute teacher for Fashion class.  The students were awesome and I am wiped out.  I chose to accept the principal’s request that…

Bitter or Better

Lack of choice nips at your hills with PTSD.  I do not have a choice when, where or why I have a flashback.  It happens, I deal with the consequences.  I didn’t have a choice about what happened to me.  I did learn in counseling that I do have a choice about my attitude, my…

Go for it

Hardest thing for people with PTSD is to believe that there is anything left to give.  I felt used up. Worn out. Burned out. Down and out.  The thought there is anything more to give is sometimes hard to believe.  The moment I stood up for myself and decided there was more to life than…

Battle of the mind

In some situations, there are limits I can’t change.  There are problems I can’t fix.  There are choices by other people, I can do nothing about.  If I sleep more, the nightmares will come, not perhaps, not maybe but come without fail.  If I work my self to exhaustion, my body will collapse, it does…

Warts and all

I decided when I started this blog to tell it like it is…all of it, warts and all.  Some of the encouraging pages I studied glossed over the tough days.  They jump forward to the future saying tomorrow will be better without addressing the distress today.  I don’t do time warps. On some days, PTSD…

Who’s responsibility is it?

One thing I learned from reading other people’s blogs is the problem of deciding, “Who’s responsibility is it?”  Many people that feel overwhelmed and exhausted often take on the responsibilities of others.  From an early age, I was taught to care for my mother instead of expecting my mother to care for me.  I took…

Ho Ho No

Do you want to ________? No. Will you _____________? No. You have to __________? No. My counselor struggled to get me to recognize I have choices.  I kept saying, “I have to – “, “They make me -“, I truly believed I didn’t have a choice.  He tried and tried to get me to see…

Arguments

The holiday season is arriving sadly in some families due to stresses and triggers tempers seem to flare too.  I clipped this from a Facebook page. I think I need to put this one on my brain to remember where ever I go. I found the link to the author’s page, please visit, great ideas…