Back in September my sister Judy shared an article on self-care. I decided to write my perspective and share her link but then life happened for both of us. I am not complaining or sad, it just happened. A lot of what happened was good and awesomeness. She got back on track with sharing her…
How really messed up I was. I excelled at the hiding game. Our children were the first ones to really notice a recurring theme that their mother was not the same in all situations. One of them accused me of lying. I was appalled. When I entered counseling and discovered the dance between personalities that…
I was diagnosed with PTSD with dissociation at an extreme level over 12 years ago. During that time PTSD was gaining recognition as being more than a soldier’s terror. Sadly, this caused conflict and confusion. Some soldiers thought that those not serving in the war didn’t have the ‘right’ to talk about their pain and…
*********Trigger Warning*********** I admire Lilly Hope Lucario. Her blog is specifically for those that are survivors of sexual abuse. I appreciate her sharing her ideas about surviving child sexual abuse. I read one of her articles recently – Please be prepared for a tough read. If you are not in a place ready to openly…
I grew up with no social media. I couldn’t text, surf or blog because none of that existed. Saved me from posting a lot of dumb stuff. 25. “Several things, but the main one was lashing out on social media for years. Controversial and angry statuses, just due to the anger inside of me. I…
************* TRIGGER WARNING************* I asked this question in high school. I took a class called search for identity. We read the book Daphne du Maurier The Scapegoat. https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/18869971-the-scapegoat Left me with more questions than answers. I was the only person in the class that read the semester long text in two weeks. The…
The last quote has two parts. Blaming myself is part 1, part 2 is the constant feeling I am not good enough. I’m not good enough parent, I’m not good enough photographer, I’m not good enough computer technician. The list goes on and on and on. I see myself as not enough. 23. “Blaming myself…
More complex then it first appears. 20. “I have a hard time making eye contact with people. I look away a lot when I’m speaking. I get startled very easily and it takes me awhile to get my heart rate back to normal.” https://themighty.com/2017/06/childhood-emotional-abuse-adult-habits/ For me, this is two separate issues. Startle response is extreme. …
I learned that emotional abuse is a part of every other abuse and causes the most lasting damage. A child’s emotions are tender and untried an abuser can do extensive damage at a young age. Toxic Parents is one of the best sources that describe the emotional abuse perpetuated by too many parents. 19. “My…
I struggled with reading as a child. I also had a really lousy teacher and almost every student in that class had a major set back. Trauma in the classroom makes it hard to learn. In high school, I changed it all. I worked hard taking difficult classes and graduated in the top 5% of…
PTSD - Accepting, Coping, Thriving 