I enjoyed Christmas this year. That was my goal. I succeeded. However, recovery takes time. I spent the days after Christmas at home. Resting – working quietly. Worked on crocheting and pour painting. I didn’t push myself to accomplish anything. I set my goal to enjoy Christmas, I did. Time to take a victory lap…
Forgiveness is a tough subject partly because of what I believe the mistaken belief that forgiveness means letting an abuser back into your life. My point of view is that forgiveness is all about me but does not mean reconciliation with my abusers. Reconciliation starts with forgiveness but requires change on the part of the…
Such an awesome word. Sounds something odd and weird. In a sense, it is. It is our brains ability to change. Scientist are learning that PTSD and CPTSD are forms of brain injuries. Some people feel doomed by this diagnosis. I felt relieved to have a name for my pain. It was no longer a…
Resentment is an emotion that puzzled me. Was it a hiding emotion that hid other emotions? It was linked to bitterness but some how different? I felt it, but wasn’t sure how to heal it when I didn’t know the source or whence it came. Like many epiphanies that I have, it came while I…
I get frustrated with doctors. They hear I have PTSD, suddenly every ache and pain is stressed caused. Sometimes it isn’t. My leg has bothered me for months. I thought a fall last summer may have been the cause but no bruising to indicate any damage. My friend at karate pointed out that I was…
My counselor did not warn me when he helped me reconnect to emotions that these pesky things are messy, sneaky, inconvenient and down right troublesome. I am struggling in a morass of emotions of my own making. But I’ve never been happier, more at peace or better adjusted. Too many people want to runaway from…
Have you ever noticed that the Holiday’s arrive at the same time? The drama remains the same from year to year? The unreasonable expectations also don’t change? I have several posts about holidays that I reuse over and over because the same stuff happens. There is some good news. This year one of my big…
Shared with permission, Thank you Poppy. https://scontent-lax3-1.xx.fbcdn.net/v/t1.0-9/72401941_889619328105588_7547656070617890816_o.jpg?_nc_cat=110&_nc_eui2=AeEUFMsiC1JML7R6qzFSpHDHXqV5uAUNYj4Rv6lojvkWWyYtsjStqZsFaf2rfQ_SpwFl6NwAOuMp_AeAw6WBqjArK-rBiXe9j89rXxFCwJ5vLw&_nc_oc=AQkTbPw4FvlIgvzfj4DhQ-ib8xeb-HjVyUNsjD6Ifsbt9iFcWieqtNObllK36MukuO8&_nc_ht=scontent-lax3-1.xx&oh=740a6ab8c06a992189dd52968401e059&oe=5E186A29 Sharing someone else’s work is difficult at best. Almost impossible in some situations. On Facebook or Pinterest so many people swap and share without linking back to the original. I think I found the right person for this excellent picture of emotional abuse through invalidation and what…
For years, I had great plans and wishes but no energy to finish anything. I mean I started out great and then life happened and I would bury another half finished project. Then came counseling, graduating from university, and completing several crocheted projects as in blanket type projects. I am finishing up another one. This…
My son-in-law teaches people about how to shift their paradigm….I’ve read along and nodded my head; then it struck me, I need another paradigm shift. For those not familiar with paradigm, it is the thoughts, beliefs, and behaviors that we live by. Many of these beliefs and behaviors started in childhood. If you had a…
PTSD - Accepting, Coping, Thriving 
