Couch potato to Marathon

Anyone would agree that going from couch potato to marathon runner in a week would be ridiculous.  Yet, I tend to do this to myself emotionally.  I can barely get out the door on a good day then I expect myself to attend a large party or a highly stressful event without feeling wiped out. …

PTSD and Yoga

I came across two articles that explain the benefits of yoga when healing from trauma.  I tried it years ago in college.  I still use breathing exercises I learned in the class.  I want to share different ideas if I am using them or not because what does or does not work for me, may…

It’s your experience

Too often I was told how I should feel, how long I should hurt, and ridiculed if I cried.  I learned to stuff how I felt, no longer acknowledged my pain, and didn’t cry.  I was emotionally self destructing.  I spent 3 years almost completely bed ridden.  I could be up about 20 minutes a…

Being less

One of the difficult concepts to overcome is the belief that I am less; less important, less smart, less pretty, less loved.  In a family with favorites, I was informed multiple times that I would be given less food, less attention, less time, less money because others in the family were more important than I…

Can’t avoid Triggers

My counselor commented I was a field filled with trigger land mines.  Can’t avoid hitting them when they are everywhere.  I appreciate this morning reminder on Facebook. PTSD Break The Silence Because we often cannot avoid triggers, it is important to learn ways of coping with triggers. Effective, healthy coping strategies for lessening the impact…

Explaining Stuck

I keep doing research and reading what others write about the challenges of PTSD.  One of the more perplexing terms used by counselors is the explanation that I am ‘Stuck.’  Well great, what does it mean and how do I get unstuck?  I imagined myself ‘stuck’ in quicksand, the more I struggled the more ‘stuck’…

Bleeding

This may be highly triggering for some people.  Proceed with caution. I wrote this early in my counseling. I was attempting to get across to my counselor the struggles I was having with emotional distress. I’m bleeding I go to my parents – I’m bleeding. Oh honey I’m sorry to hear that, here’s a little…

Care givers

One of the interesting things about PTSD is how many similarities it has to traumatic brain injury.  My daughter had a large brain tumor removed last May.  She shared this link to Caregiver tips for caregivers of those that are recovering from brain tumor surgery.  As I read, I recognized many of the same challenge…

Who decides hurt?

I enjoy Facebook pages that post stuff that encourages, makes me think, and agrees with me.     The reverse is also true.  If I tell someone they hurt me, they don’t get to decide that they didn’t. One of the important things that I learned in counseling was I decide what hurts me.  As…