Reminded myself why

Waiting for our pizza to cook I bought a book to read from the thrift store.  Reminded myself why I am not allowed to read fiction books.  Yup, finished reading it in less than 48 hours.  I would rather read than eat, sleep, exercise, work, sew….reading is my addiction.  I keep to nonfiction I am…

Changed my lens

I was asked a question I am struggling with how to write the answer, “What would you like therapists to know?” The first counselor I worked with was so extraordinary I had a hard time saying anything.  He understood me in ways that I didn’t understand about myself.  He led me to answers, allowing me…

Grieving

These past months heart break touched our family.  Our little granddaughter came to stay on Earth for less than an hour.  I sometimes wish that the old traditions of being allowed to mourn for a year was still in practice.  This is what I am learning.  Today’s culture of everyone must be happy is destroying…

What if?

For the most part, I don’t like to look at what ifs?  Leaves me playing a game of creating a life that was never there.  How ever, what if I didn’t have a counselor?  Sadly, this is a growing issue. Two things are hitting hard.  Many insurances don’t cover mental health appointments or the number…

Whew

After a mighty battle of misinformation,  wrong wires, and two services guys, I am now reconnected online.  Woohoo.  I am so happy to be back.  I am astonished at how happy I feel.  Hi Everyone. Now the trick is to balance catching up on line with stuff I need to get done before going back…

Cut off

It is unsettling to be suddenly cut off from my Internet.  My sister took pity on me and lets me come to her house to try to keep up a little.  So much is happening and I keep thinking well I can look that up or I can read that but no….it is on the…

Different results

Beats and rhythms designed to heal and relax.  Some people believe this is useless; another way to extract money from people looking for relief.  I have a different theory.  Over the years I spent many hours researching different healing avenues.  I learned that each one has its merits and followers.  Music therapy is now a…

Can’t Make them Happy

One of the chargers I had as a child was to make my mother happy.  Being an obedient child I did my best and failed over and over and over because it wasn’t possible.  Happiness is an inside job. Will Smith agrees with me and shared his views in this video. Enjoy: you tube put…

i do not like that sam i am

I like reading to children.  I like many of the children’s books.  I can recite pages and pages of some of the books I read often to our children.  However, there are some books that kids seem to love that have a very dark message.  Green Eggs and Ham is on my ugh list.  Kids…

Self-protection

I am responsible for protecting myself.  Too long I waited for my mother, my father, my husband, someone to protect me…..I waited……..and waited.  Then I started counseling.  Maybe the counselor would protect me?  Nope.  He informed me that he would teach me how to protect myself. NO That’s it.  One word, no explanation needed.  I…