One of the hard things about being raised by a person the violates your boundaries on a daily basis is that you don’t realize when someone else is doing the same thing since it is what you are used to having happen. Thanks to Jonsi and other internet friends I became more aware. In counseling,…
Every once in a while I get a reminder why I started this blog. I purchased a workbook about PTSD. (Not naming which one because I have seen the assumption in more than one.) Chapter 1 “Prior to the occurrence of a traumatic event or events, there are generally basic assumptions that guide your life.”…
Long before I was diagnosed with PTSD, I studied eating disorders. I learned from watching my grandmother talking about how she was fat when she weighed 80 lbs. (36 KG) She would feed her steak to the dog under the table. She ate better than anyone else and she fed it to the dog. I…
I could have told the doctors there was a connection, however, they want proof, the kind you get off an MRI or other scientific proof. They are getting that proof. They are showing there is a link between abusing a child and actual physical long lasting trauma injuries. Those that live it, know it. But…
I spent 10 years in counseling. I lived with PTSD for over 50 years. This past year, I had so much going on in my life I wanted to walk away from everything to do with PTSD. I considered just letting all this go and focus on being a grandma, wife, and teacher’s aid. Delving…
I follow several other survivors working towards healthier living. Their posts inspire, encourage, and sometimes trigger me. I am sharing a link to Roots to Blossom. I took 4 days to read through her analysis as to why she was abused. Then another day to read all the comments. I recommend reading the comments. Ntexas99…
Lilly Hope Lucario and I must be on the same wavelength. She wrote about the chronic pain from constantly being on-guard. Never relaxing because I knew that as soon as I let my guard down my abuser would strike. They would persuade me I was safe, I would relax then wham full attack. I was in…
Which came first, the chicken or the egg? Chronic pain is a rarely mentioned side effect or symptom or cause of PTSD. Many days of my life, I wake up, I move, I’m in pain, I’m not dead, therefore, I have to get up. Bummer. I could never figure out what was causing some of…
Rarely show outside scars. Trigger Alert articles may be triggering for some readers. Two articles came to my attention today. One comes from Lilly Hope Lucario sharing how she felt at the beginning of her journey of healing. https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2013/04/28/complex-ptsd-is-an-isolating-severe-exhausting-disorder/ Her description so vividly described how I felt so often at the beginning of my healing…
On a regular basis I post information on the symptoms of PTSD. I lived with it for over 40 years not knowing that my reaction to life had a name and I wasn’t alone. I am fascinated that when I decide I want to write a certain post and within days I get links to…
PTSD - Accepting, Coping, Thriving 