I ran across two of these memes so I posted both of them. Not sure which came out first. Before counseling, I apologized all the time, even when things were not my fault at all. I felt like anything unpleasant was my fault. If I just did better, prepared better, been better the problem would…
Dissociation from my emotions is a symptom of PTSD/CPTSD. I was numb. I didn’t feel pain but I didn’t feel happiness either. I was so completely detached from my feelings that I couldn’t tell you at any given moment what I felt. I knew I had feelings….sometimes I was happy and sometimes I felt bone…
Been a rough 2 or 3 months. Tons of family stuff happening and changes at work. I realized recently I must have broken my self-regulation button or turned it off. That button that when pushed you do the adult thing when you are supposed to do it. Not the broken one of not going to…
Last week end I took a trip with my daughter. In the past, she did all the driving while I chatted with the kids, crocheted or slept. This time she felt sick. Our choices were go home or I drive. I chose to drive. I hit a record of driving almost 8 hours. I haven’t…
This is a long time for me to not even check this web site. It is mine to care for but the ebb and flow of my life is that my life is super overwhelming right now. Medical procedures that require me to be unconscious are massive triggers. It is all I can do to…
I am working on something new to me. Probably not new to most people. In the past, no matter how stressful life becomes I am going to accomplish several things on my mental list or beat myself for not doing this. This is the new school year, happens every august about the same time. This…
I belong to 2 CPTSD/PTSD groups on Facebook. I don’t remember which one posted the question but a woman asked how she could help her little girl be happy again because they were going on a mother/daughter trip and the daddy said he would be sad while they were gone. The little tender hearted girl…
Yes, my abusers went to the same church as I did. I was blamed by people at church. I experienced victim shaming at church. There are unpleasant people at church. So why do I still attend church? My relationship with God, the Father and Jesus Christ are not about them. I felt the promptings of…
On my other blog I wrote about envy. http://weareone-ruth.blogspot.com/2019/07/envy.html The antidote of envy is gratitude. If something is offered and I grudgingly take it, I do not feel it is the gift it is meant to be. Seriously, without gratitude nothing feels like a gift. With gratitude, every day feels like a gift. With gratitude…
I work at a school so 2 months of summer is spent in a variety of activities that I don’t seem to get done during the school year. This year is marked with adventures of all kinds. Some not so great. I ate soy at a restaurant that assured me their product was soy free. …
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