This week I started working at work for 2 days. Most people would think, “Why is this post worthy?” First off, my contract doesn’t start until tomorrow. I was called in early. I offered to come in to help with the distribution of computers to students and they decided to take me up on my…
Spent the last 10 days wrestling with what shot my PTSD into over drive. Sleepless nights, anxiety, isolation, fear, raging anger, too sick to exercise, stuffing emotions with food. Finally figured it out, I am freaking mad over having to wear a mask. I stay away from people. I never applied for a job that…
Change your life is not new. I posted about it before. What I am sharing today is a link for things specific to this pandemic experience. Mindset Shift During a Pandemic
In the media, online and gossip around me have some fairly messed up ideas about PTSD. PTSD/CPTSD is not rudeness, cruelty to others, or criminal behavior. Recently, I heard someone say that the reason a person was so rude was because they were mentally ill. WRONG. Missing social skills, yes. Lack of proper upbringing, yes. …
Too often another stumbling block to healing is the mind-set, “Fix me, please.” Too many clients walk into a counseling room expecting/pleading for the counselor to fix them. My counselor did not let me keep that delusion for very long. He informed me under no uncertain terms that I had a lot of work to…
Use baby steps, SMART goals, planning, moving forward, crawling to get there. Around this time of year I post information about SMART goals. I am also learning to use them more effectively myself. Basically make a plan then work the plan. Back for review: https://ptsd-acceptingcopingthriving.com/2015/12/31/smart-baby-steps/ What is a SMART goal? Found an article online that…
I quit sewing costumes for plays years ago because they get so crazy with fittings, alterations, sewing, and planning… sounds like reverse order but that is how crazy plays can get. I volunteered to help with a Christmas musical at church thinking it would have at the most a dozen parts. Oops. A cast of…
The list of things I do as an adult that are similar to many other people that are survivors is daunting. https://themighty.com/2017/06/childhood-emotional-abuse-adult-habits/ When I started counseling, I did 25 out of 25. I’ve improved those numbers. I going to tackle some of these with information as to how I made my life better. “[I] can’t…
I believe in many ways this is the pivotal question that gets distorted in an abuse situation. What really matters was all about appeasing my abuser to survive one more day. What really matters was second guessing and jumping through hoops hoping I made it through them fast enough before the boom fell. Violence and…
I had to look it up because I did not remember the reference to the Star Trek movies. This is a no win test faced by all Cadets in the Starfleet Academy. (Yes, I watched the original Star Trek before it was a rerun.) The meme on Facebook showed a bumper sticker, “My ship just…
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