Happen again

“You worry about things that will never happen.”  Sadly, this was a comment used to put me down.  No one believed what happened on 9/11 when planes fell from the sky.  Those that predicted such an extreme event before that day were ridiculed and told they were ridiculous that Americans would never be attacked on…

Counter Act Self-Neglect

Self-nurturing is the way to counter act self-neglect.  One of the harder things I had to do to was to recognize what I needed.  I was trained to self-neglect.  If you aren’t fed when you are hungry the concept that my needs could be met was a bit far fetched.  The first portion of this…

It could always be worse

I’ve heard it over and over and over.  The cancer could have been worse, the nightmares could have been worse, my childhood could have been worse.  That’s true.  Here are a few things I do to myself that make things worse. Self-neglect.  I’m home writing this post because I neglected my health and now I…

Storms

I learned over 15 years ago that I lived with PTSD since I was 5 years old.  No one recognized the symptoms.  I always acted that way.  The diagnosis gave me a word to research.  Parameters for finding more answers.  Also a community of others that shared an experience almost impossible to describe to someone…

Self care

One of the challenges of CPTSD is the long time belief that I am not worth taking care of.  I work at reminding myself that I am worth taking care of myself.  Nurturing, tender, proper care is not self indulgence.  It is taking the time to take care of myself in a healthy way.  Self…

Learning From SEAL survival

I help out in the school library/tech center.  I am help supervise students that are using the computers during one class time.  When all is going well, I get bored.  Since there are shelves and shelves of library books, I do the most logical thing and see what’s on the shelf.  Surprised me when I…

Don’t have to sit on it

I love quotes and posters and a clever reminders. PTSD exists because something negative happened.  I fell on a cactus.  It was painful and difficult pulling out every hooked thorn.  Sometimes a person is pushed into a cactus patch.  No matter where they put their hand more pain occurs.  The struggle out is painful and…

I believe you

My world stopped then started unwinding when my counselor told me these words.  I was told I was lying from the time I was very small until I thought it was true.  However, my counselor changed all that.  He believed me.  He listened to me.  He reminded me I was worth rescuing.  I’m thankful I…